Monday 18 June 2007

Confessions of a serial mower - mum "set free"



We lost mum two years ago today; it seems like last week. It feels worse than it did last year.

I have found the Service of Thanksgiving Sheet we had, and have copied below a couple of the passages from it.

On the front we had printed “Lift up your heart and share it with me, God wanted me now, he set me free” (anon). She had suffered greatly and this quote seemed appropriate.

My niece, H was 14 when mum died and she wrote the following about her beloved Grandma..
They adored each other – mum looked after her a lot when my sister in law returned to work. They spent hours together in the farm kitchen, before H was old enough to go to school and then after school.
H is now in the midst of her exams – she wants to study law - and I know grandma would be very proud of her just now.

Thoughts of Grandma Chickens

On this page I write the things I remember – things that I shall never forget.
Buns, crispy cakes, jam tarts, sausage rolls, Yorkshire puddings the size of your fist.
Oh there are too many cakes to list. All of these were cooked on the Aga by you and a little help from me.
Every time I walked into the kitchen a new smell was to be smelt, a rumbling in my stomach felt.
You taught me to knit; bears and bags. Although I could never knit as fast as you however hard I tried. When I got in a muddle it was on you which I relied.
When I was little I used to come and play with Monty and Winston in the hay. (cats)
After, we would sit on the lawn eating cucumber sandwiches and crisps, watching the fish, their tails would swish.
On a Sunday in the summer, Granddad, you and I would take the car to the fuchsia festival to take a long look at the flowers. They came in all shapes, sizes and colours; you knew most of their names.
All my memories are happy, none sad and to have these memories I am glad.
Now you live in heaven but you are still here.
I think of you when I bake cakes and tarts, although they shall never be as good as yours I fear.
These things that I was taught by you I shall never forget, they will be passed on to my children and theirs. And when they ask me who taught me such skills I shall reply in only five words – A very special Grandma Chickens. With love H xx

The photo is of H sitting in the fireplace here at Christmas last year. She is rather gorgeous and we all love her dearly. I see lots of me in her, and lots of grandma chickens in us both.

16 comments:

Suffolkmum said...

What lovely words from a grandaughter, brought a lump to my throat. Your Mum will indeed be proud of all of you. One of the things I most dread about losing my Mum is the effect it will have on my children - they are both so close to her - but better to have had that relationship than not at all. Thinking of you today, I'm sure it will be a hard day for you.

Sally Townsend said...

Pull up that steamer Mousie and lets put our feet up. x

snailbeachshepherdess said...

purple hug on the way

Bluestocking Mum said...

Bless you and your niece-I can see the similarities too-she said everything in her writing..really touched me. What precious memories for her. How lovely that you are so close.

You take care Mousie.

Warm wishes
xx

Milla said...

How very touching. I hate death!

Westerwitch/Headmistress said...

Oh Mousie - I am so sorry that it still hurts and I can't promise it will ever get any easier - although time is a good healer. My Mum died when I was 15 . . I still miss her, but the awful tearing pain has gone away.

Knee deep in tissues here.

Inthemud said...

Just beautiful Mousie, I loved the words from your niece , so poignant.

Such memories.

Warmest wishes

Elaine

Anonymous said...

Words fail me. Your hearts are filled with love as you remember a gentle soul who made you rich beyond your wildest dreams.

Take care. Crystal xx

MaidofKent said...

One day Mousie we shall find out whether or not our Mums look down on us and smile, or shake their heads that we get so miserable at their loss - (seeing as they're having a ball!) Mine died 8 months before yours. I regret that my grandchildren will scarcely remember her. I have to believe we'll meet again though - I'd go mad without that thought.

Elizabethd said...

My grandcjildren adored their gran, and have so many treasured memories of her. How lovely your niece's writing is.

Pondside said...

So sorry for your sad day, Mousie. I can't imagine your loss. I thought your niece's verse was very touching. The gift obviously runs in the family.

bodran... said...

That was lovely,tears dripping off my chin onto the laptop...xxx

Chris Stovell said...

Thank you Mousie, for today's (wedns) comment which did make me smile. I did leave a comment here for you about your Mum but it may not have survived the reshuffle as I found this blog down the page. We must keep on remembering the happy times with our loved ones, mustn't we?

Kitty said...

That's so lovely, Hope you are feeling a bit better today, grief creeps up on you at times like these and stifles all other emotion.

LITTLE BROWN DOG said...

She sounds like a really special mum and Grandma - and your lovely niece sounds really special, too. Grief is very hard, but it sounds as though there is a lot of love in your family, too.

(May not be the time or the place, but many thanks for your lovely cowpat story - it really gave me a laugh.)

LBD xx

Grouse said...

How lovely that you have your niece there to always remind you of your wonderful mother.